Saturday, 13 June 2009

I'm Off

For the first time in my life, at the age of 44 and 360/365ths, I'm going on holiday on my own.

It feels weird and a bit scary. Unusual. Nobody wrote a song called 'I'm all going on a summer holiday.' (In fact, has anybody written a song about going on holiday alone?) My Paramour asked me how I was feeling about it, a couple of days ago, and I said that doing some parts of the preparation on my own made me feel really lonely. 'Still, it's good practice for when you're dead,' I told him. The look on his face was priceless.

It also feels exciting. Isn't it odd how excitement and apprehension are such similar feelings? I was lying in the bath this morning reading Jonny Bealby's Running Down The Moon (fabulous book, no idea why I haven't come across it before) and feeling silly for feeling scared. He travelled the length of Africa on a motorbike by himself. I'm only going to Devon, for heaven's sake - if I don't like it, I can be home in a few hours.

But in fact, I think I'll have a good time. I've packed the shorts of optimism as well as the mackintosh of prudence (she said I could borrow it) and the underwear of necessity, and about 10 pairs of shoes and boots, my laptop, a carrier bag full of books, my camera, I could go on and on, the car boot is full, the only thing I left out was the kitchen sink. And the cats, boo hoo snivel, I'm going to miss the cats. And my Paramour...

I don't know whether I'll be able to blog. There's no Internet access in the flat where I'm staying, I may be able to hop on a public computer somewhere but there are no guarantees. I'll be home in a couple of weeks so normal service, or at least what passes for normal around here, will be resumed around then. Have fun, y'all!

12 comments:

Debs said...

You sound well organized, and I'm sure you'll have a fab time. I don't think I've ever been away by myself either.

Looking forward to hearing about it when you return.

Carol and Chris said...

You will have a ball and I'm sure you will get tons of writing done!! You have the shorts of optimism and prudence's Mac (that was very nice of her) and the underwear of necessity so all you need now is a pair of writing pants like Lane's!!

I look forward to hearing how you get on :-)

C x

JJ Beattie said...

Going on holiday on your own is bloody marvellous. I hope you have a wonderful time.

Kirsty said...

Have a LOVELY time - and can't wait to hear all about it xxx

PI said...

Is it more frightening that going on a writing course for instance? It's different I suppose,when you are actually staying alone. I shall be very interested in your experience. When you think how very many widows there are - we should be able to cope. And at least you won't be driven mad by someone's irritating habits. I think you'll enjoy it.

HelenMHunt said...

Have a great time!

SpiralSkies said...

I think going on hols alone sounds jolly liberating - can't wait to hear how you get on.

Have a fabulous time X

debra said...

I am here via Pat :-)
Have a wonderful time! Last year, for the first time in over 20 years, I took a trip for myself by myself (to visit my daughter in New York City at her college). A 12 hour train ride all by myself.
Have a great trip.

Beleaguered Squirrel said...

Hang on a minute... 360/365ths... doesn't this imply you're having your birthday on your own? Now THAT might be weird!

But anyway I bet you have a truly gorgeous time and come back truly refreshed.

Debi said...

Hope you're having a productive time and that prudence gets her mac back unused. x

Tam said...

Hope you had a fabulously productive time :-)

Queenie said...

I had a GREAT time, it was thoroughly liberating and super-productive!